God Never Ceases to Amaze Me

He doesn't - just when I think things are rocking along, He mixes it up.  I have numerous stories where He has amazed me by revealing himself - most significant are my physical healing in 2005, becoming LifeKIDS Director that same year, becoming kids pastor at Sanctuary this year, and most recently being moved back to LifeChurch.tv at the new Owasso campus.  Each story is interesting (at least I think so), and He has used these stories to speak to and encourage others.  But as I read a bit of Oswald Chambers this morning, I am reminded that it isn't the story that changes lives, but God through his Holy Spirit. Here's a snippet of today's devotion:

'The creative power of the redemption of God works in the souls of men only through the preaching of the gospel.  It is never the sharing of personal experiences that saves people, but the truth of redemption.  "The words that I speak to you are spirit, and they are life." (John 6:63)'

Although the most recent story of how God spoke to me through a dream is remarkable (it still blows me away), it is only a catalyst to lead people to hear the gospel - where God will reveal His redemptive power.

Wedding Announcement

Got your attention, didn't I?  I certainly wouldn't announce such an event on my blog - actually, I probably wouldn't announce it at all.  You would likely find out after I returned from Vegas, Arkansas, or the County Courthouse and I asked you to help me move. (Just kidding - I'm not that callous.)  

On a serious note.  As followers of Christ, we have been given an eternal gift - to be the bride of Christ himself as He brings Heaven to earth.  We should be planning our wedding day, looking forward to it with excitement and inviting everyone we know to attend.  Just like children staring at beautifully wrapped gifts under the tree, filled with anticipation of Christmas morning, we should be filled with the excitement of knowing that Christ is going to return for us - giving us the ultimate gift of eternal life.

As we ready ourselves to celebrate His birth, let's also remember His promise to return.  What a celebration will be had this Christmas as we give thanks for what He has done as well as what He has promised to do in the future.  Ready yourselves - the wedding will be the most magnificent ever!

"...A man can receive only what is given him from heaven...The bride belongs to the bridegroom.  The friend who attends the bridegroom waits and listens for him, and is full of joy when he hears the bridegrooms voice."  John 3:27-29  'Then I heard what sounded like a great multitude, like the roar of rushing waters and like loud peals of thunder, shouting:  "Hallelujah! For our Lord God Almighty reigns.  Let us rejoice and be glad and give him glory! For the wedding of the Lamb has come, and his bride has made herself ready.  Fine linen, bright and clean, was given her to wear." Revelation 19:6

And in the event I ever get married again here on earth, you, my loyal blog readers, will be towards the top of the list of "people in the know."

The Meaning of a Note

Mail - I used to love going to the mail box, hoping that there was something just for me.  That was before my mail began to consist of bills, ads and more bills.  Mail lost all of its fun when what I looked forward to was my monthly bank statement.  You know what I'm talking about - when the Wednesday ads aren't even interesting anymore.

But every once in a great while when I go to the mail box, there's something that causes me to run back into my apartment with anticipation - hardly making it up the steps before I begin to tear the envelope apart.  A handwritten note or card from someone who was thinking about me - from someone who took the time out to write a note to say they care.

The art of writing notes and using "snail mail" has tumbled into a deep chasm, replaced by e-mail and text messaging.  I am oh so guilty of neglecting this communication art myself - I blame it on my poor handwriting.  But awhile back, I decided to take a run at resurrecting note writing and began sending small cards with a "just wanted you to know I'm thinking about you" thoughts to some of the people who impacted me the previous week.  I don't do it enough, and I'm trying to expand my horizons beyond the volunteers in our ministry, but at least I'm trying.  And, it's working.  I've received several e-mails this week stating how much they appreciated receiving a card.  One of the e-mails said "I know you don't have time for writing notes, and yet you do."  This has changed my perspective - I now feel: How can I not have time to write these notes?  How can I go a day, week or month without letting people know that I care and am thinking about them?  If the few minutes it takes each week to write cards, address them and slap a stamp on the front positively impacts only one life, then it's worth it!

What about you?  When is the last time you wrote a note with your very own hand (not on a keyboard, QWERTY or otherwise)?  When is the last time you received a handwritten note?  If it's been awhile, let me know - I'll send you one!  Better yet - send some out yourself and see if you don't get one or two in return.  

Best Gift

I received one of the best gifts ever last night - an acoustic guitar (or gy-TAR as my dad would call it).  I can't wait to learn how to play and could hardly sleep last night thinking about online lessons vs going to a live instructor, picking vs strumming, minor chords, major chords, etc.

I am so blessed and have so much going through my head that I think I won't bore you - suffice it to say that I am blown away excited!  Now, pray for me that I can learn this thing and recognize my lifelong dream to be a Rock Star!  (JK - a lounge act will be okay.)

To the one who gave me this wondrous gift - THANK YOU!  You are indeed incredibly special and I appreciate you more each and every day.  I love all we have discovered together.  You might want to pray though - you don't know what you've unleashed on the world!

Ouch!

I was reminded today of something my son said to me a few years ago, "Mom, sometimes you treat your friends better than you treat me."  Ouch!  It was true!  I was often on my best behavior around my friends.  I look forward to being with them because they make me happy, and...I want them to like me.  Shouldn't I be the same with my family?

We often feel like it's okay to "let down" when we come home because home is our safe place.  It's a place where we don't have to be someone we're not, where we can just be ourselves.  Well, if being ourselves means that we are ugly, grumpy and rude, then maybe we ought to look at who we really are...and not make excuses.  Whether we have had a good day or the worst day ever, there is never an excuse to be ugly, grumpy or rude to anyone we are around...including our family!

There are times I still fall into the trap and am less than pleasant at home, but for the most part, I try to be the same person no matter who I'm with.  I want to be known as someone who smiles and is optimistic - to everyone I meet.  If I succeed, hopefully people, including my family, will see Jesus through me.  If not...then Heaven help everyone because it may not be pretty!

Dreams

Have you ever had a dream that came true?  Not a dream like "I dream one day to be a doctor" or "I dream to have a romantic hunk of a husband, a mansion by the lake, a fast car and be rich," (not that the second one isn't worth considering-LOL), but a real honest to goodness, full-night's sleep dream?  In my few years on this earth (emphasis on "few"), I've had my share of dreams but I can't recall one actually coming true almost to the clothing I was wearing.  Until now...

I'm sure you don't care about the details of this dream (or if you do, too bad, because I'm not going to share), but what I want you to know is that God uses ways that we can never imagine to guide us on this path called Life.  I've heard his "whispers," as Bill Hybels called them, in many forms - reading, thoughts affirmed by others, and through friends, but never so vividly as in a dream.  There are numerous stories throughout the Bible where God speaks through dreams, and I have  always been curious how that felt.  What would it be like to wake up and think "wow, God spoke to me last night?"  Well, now I know...and I am thankful!

Now...how about a burning bush?

2 Timothy

Wow - don't you just love when God speaks to you through His word?  Lately, he keeps bringing me back to 2nd Timothy, a letter from Paul to Timothy.  The overwhelming theme is an encouragement to Timothy to endure whatever comes his way and continue to fight for the Truth.  Paul tells Timothy that he himself has "fought the good fight, he has finished the race."

Almost every day for a week now, God continues to draw me to this book.  I share with you the following, as it seems very important at this point in time:

"... I give you this charge: Preach the Word; be prepared in season and out of season; correct, rebuke and encourage-with great patience and careful instruction.  For the time will come when men will not put up with sound doctrine.  Instead, to suit their own desires, they will gather around them a great number of teachers to say what their itching ears want to hear.  They will turn their ears away from the truth and turn aside to myths.  But you, keep your head in all situations, endure hardship, do the work of an evangelist, discharge all the duties of your ministry."  2 Timothy 4:1-5

Peace and Happy Thanksgiving.

Been Too Long

Sorry it's been so long since I've blogged.  A few things that have been going on:

• Family Meeting at Sanctuary - went well. 250 in attendance.
• Introduced new curriculum to 2s&3s - kids and leaders alike love it!
• Mom's coming for Thanksgiving - clean the apartment, shop for groceries, looking forward to seeing her.
• MacBook hard drive crashed - and no backup.  Might need valium for this one.
• Short week, so lots to do.

Sorry that this blog has no real "content" to it.  Just thought I'd send a quick update so you know I haven't dropped off the face of the earth.  Happy Thanksgiving!

An Emotional Day

I'm not unfamiliar with sacrifice.  Giving up something so that something (or someone) else can benefit.  As a single mom, sacrifice is a way of life.  Today, I sacrificed so that a friend can be happy.  Let me explain.

Holly has been one of my best friends for 13+ years. She has been through a lot in her life - serious illness that has brought her to death's door more than once, divorce, and last year the death of her second husband.  She has helped me through incredibly tough times - debilitating illness, divorce and career challenges.  We have shared uncountable hours of laughter and tears.  

She has taught me a lot - the most important lesson has been to "push through."  When I was so weak that I couldn't lift myself out of a chair, she encouraged me to push through.  When I had to move into a tiny bedroom at my dad's house with my 15 yr old son, she repeated "push through."  Any time that I have struggled, she's been there holding me up and reminding me to "push through."

After her husband Gary died, I repeated her lesson to me...and she listened.  Since then, I have prayed that God would bless her abundantly and bestow upon her the happiness she deserves.  I didn't realize it would cause me to sacrifice.  Today, I had the last of my "every freakin' Tuesday" lunches with Holly because she is moving to Arkansas tomorrow to be with her new husband and his two daughters.  She is finally a mom!  And she is happy - abundantly so.

I...am sad.  I will miss her more than words can describe.  But I will sacrifice.  Holly - thank you for being there for me.  I know this is not goodbye - but only farewell for now.  I love you!

Ask and He Answers

I know you've all heard that God answers prayers.  Sometimes answers come quickly, and other times they seem to never come.  Tonight is a mix of both.  Life is often full of confusion and as we seek clarity and direction, we must always remember to "press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus."  Phil 3:14.

As I prayed this evening for God to "remove confusion and make a situation clear," it was only a matter of seconds and the phone rang.  No - it wasn't literally God calling (would THAT be cool)!  But it was a person who I trust deeply.  In less than 30 seconds, he was able to bring a level of clarity and encouragement that I hadn't recognized.  

God heard me and used one of his precious servants to answer - so, in a way, it was as if God himself was ringing my phone.

Ask and He will answer - sometimes immediately...sometimes it takes time.  But He always answers.

Tomatoes and randomness

Things on my mind today...

• Tomatoes - why did it take until October for my Early Girl tomato plant to produce tomatoes?  I'm enjoying these lovely "ladies" for lunch today...in November.  But they are worth the wait!
• Finally - it's election day.  Just a few more hours and no more political campaign ads on the tv for awhile.
• What is the purpose of PMS?  Josh asked me last night when I was going to be in a good mood again.  Hmmm...maybe the 12th of NEVER (that's the PMS talking). Would anyone miss me if I drugged myself into oblivion and locked myself in a room for the 3 days of PMS?  Just slide the food under the door and no one will get hurt...and the tea - don't forget the tea!
• Speaking of tea - why can one brand of black and orange pekoe taste so much better than another brand?  Sipping on TAZO Awake right now...mmm good!

That's it - randomness and tomatoes.  Do you like my new pho-to?  My amazing friend took some incredible pics of me for some church stuff - I think this one is most representative of me - outdoors and on the phone!

Believe

My favorite word - Believe.  Believe: accept as true; think that something exists; trust. msnencarta

I believe:  In God; In Jesus Christ as the Son of God; In the Holy Spirit; In the Word of God as truth; In miracles; In family; In the Mission; In love; In passion; In following your dreams.

I believe our dreams are God's directions for our life, as long as we are seeking His path.

I believe in children.

I believe in the mission of Sanctuary Kids to share the truth of Jesus Christ in a loving, engaging and relevant environment.

I believe God has called us here for this very moment.

I believe in making a difference. What do you believe?

Days Off

I took a few days off during Josh's fall break to spend time focusing on him (as much as he would let me).  In one day, I drove over 100 miles shuffling him and his friends to various skate parks and other entertainment venues.  Today - picked him up from camping, cooked him breakfast and had some great face time talking about hunting.  Now, he's off to hang with his friends and attend a 16th birthday party.

He's growing up and needing less time with his dear old mom.  I've sewn the seeds of responsibility, knowing right from wrong, and sticking up for what's right even under peer pressure.  I'm praying fervently that those seeds have taken root...and I see some evidence of a sprout under that tough 15-1/2 yr old derma.

Example of a discussion today:

Josh:  Okay if we go to a birthday party tonight? Cody is driving.

Me:  What time will you be home?

Josh:  IDK (which means I don't know, if you don't have teenagers of your own...duh!)

Me:  Okay, curfew is midnight.  You know I trust you to make the right decisions.  Up to this point you I've been able to trust you and your friends.  But the minute one of you makes the wrong choice, it will ruin it for everyone.

Josh:  I know - it will really suck if someone messes it up for all of us.  Love you!

I hope all of his friend's parents are having the same discussion.  I know one of them will mess it up at some point...and Josh is right, it will suck!  I pray it won't put anyone in danger...and I pray it's not Josh!  Lord, cover Josh and be his shield.  Command your angels to guard him when he is on the field.  Rescue him and protect him, and answer him when he calls on you.

Yes - he really did say Love You!  And then picked me 3 feet up off of the floor in a huge bear hug.  Life is good!

Tenacity

Tenacity is the act of being tenacious:  1(a) not easily pulled apart; 2(a) persistent in maintaining, adhering to, or seeking something valued or desired.  

I am sometimes referred to as being "high maintenance" or "persnickety."  As I reflected on this (trying to decide if I should be offended or these are qualities I need to change), I decided that a kinder, gentler way to "labeling" these traits (and thereby not requiring me to change - maybe) is that I sometimes exhibit "tenacity."  

Recently in a message, the speaker referred to Jacob as being tenacious.  Jacob was blessed and eventually God called him Israel and his sons became the 12 tribes of Israel.  But without Jacob's tenacity, this would never have occurred.

In Genesis 29, we learn that Jacob, son of Isaac, is sent to his uncle.  There, he falls in love with his cousin Rachel (yeah, OOOOh, but I guess it wasn't so bad back then).  Jacob asks his uncle what it would take to make Rachel his wife and they agree that Jacob should work for 7 years as wages.  "So Jacob served seven years for Rachel and they seemed to him but a few days because of his love for her." Gen 29:20.  Aww - isn't that sweet and...tenacious.

But it didn't end there - as you read through the story, you find that Rachel's womb was barren, it seemed she wouldn't be able to give Jacob any children.  This was bad news because her sister, Leah (whom Jacob was tricked into sleeping with - it's twisted - and a good read so check it out) gave Jacob a number of boys.  Long story short, Rachel eventually bore him a son, along with Leah and their maidservants, and the 12 tribes of Israel were created.  All the while, Rachel's father continually changed the "wages" that Jacob paid to make his family his own, and Jacob continued to pay.

There is much more to this story showing Jacob's tenacity and his obedience to God, but you will have to read for yourself.  Can you imagine working and waiting 7 years for the love of your life?  That alone shows an incredible commitment and sacrifice!  Are we that committed to anything in the 21st century that we are willing to pay such a price - do we have this kind of tenacity?

While I "stick to my guns" on some issues and exhibit tenacity (whether right or wrong), I am challenged to weigh those issues against God's desire for me in His service.  Sometimes being "persnickety" (i.e. tenacious) is necessary so that the ministry at Sanctuary honors Him and serves His people.  Sometimes it is appropriate in raising my son and in developing strong personal relationships.  Sometimes, I am just being high maintenance.  What about you - are you tenacious for the right reasons?

Lose Your Christianity?

Do you ever have one of those days when you wonder if you are going to lose your Christianity? Two recent examples  - one I handled well, the other...not so well.  Let's go with the pitiful version first:

Experienced a wonderful afternoon at the fair with the team from Sanctuary.  I had the brilliant idea of leaving 35 minutes before rush hour so that I could get home with as little traffic headache as possible.  Well...what should have taken about 20 minutes took 1 hour and 20 minutes!  First, the entrance ramp to the highway was closed (even though the warning sign said it was closed only on "evenings and weekends" and this was clearly late afternoon...not evening).  So, a detour was necessary...on a street that was also under construction and down to one lane.  Well, short story long-it took me close to 45 minutes to go 1 mile.  What did I do?  I'd love to say that I cranked up the radio and sang worship songs to my Creator, but reality is I got angrier and angrier with each passing minute as I watched my gas gauge plummet.   I pulled out the Crackberry and called everyone I could reach and complained...loudly and with much ugliness.  I eventually made it home but I was useless to anyone because the anger and frustration pulsed through my veins all night long!

Second example:  Wally World by my house tends to only round up carts when all 1,000 of them are in the parking lot.  I waltzed out with my wallet lighter and my arms loaded down with bags only to find a line of about 75 carts blocking my car into its happy parking spot.  I looked around, saw 3 cart "corral boys" standing next to another line of carts talking, laughing and having a grand time and making no effort to open the doors to the prison cell my car was held in.  As I unloaded my groceries into the trunk, another shopper came by and asked if I could use some help moving the carts out of the way.  What an example of Christ himself!  Praise God and Hallelujuah!  Together, we manhandled the carts as the "corral boys" looked on and I was able to escape while still "singing a joyous song in my heart."  (Yeah - I know...hilariously mushy.)  Seriously though - a situation like this could easily have put me over the edge into a state of frustration, agitation, and anger...but, I looked at the carts, the "corral boys" and my Good Samaritan and kept the calm and peace that can only be described as divine - consciously and subconsciously reflecting Him and how He would act in the same circumstance.

"Make sure you don't take things for granted and go slack in working for the common good; share what you have with others.  God takes particular pleasure in acts of worship-a different kind of "sacrifice"-that takes place in the kitchen and workplace and on the streets."  Hebrews 13:16 The Msg

I am reminded that I must "share what I have with others" and what I have is the Love of Christ.  The kitchen, workplace and the streets can be the modern day Jerusalem, Judea, Samaria and ends of the earth.  Share what you have...and if you don't have it, let me know - I'd love to share!

Hope

Ever feel like you have no hope?  It seems like everything you have looked forward to has been ripped away - not fast like a band-aid to ease the sting, but slowly, painfully, and it just keeps ripping. 

Thankfully, I'm not personally in this season right now, but I know it all too well.  We have all experienced this loss of hope at one time or another.  How do we get out, when nothing seems fair and all seems lost?  Scripture tells us:  "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."  Jeremiah 29:11.  The Lord spoke these words through the prophet Jeremiah to His people who were in exile.  These people had been forced out of their homes into an unfamiliar territory.  They had seemingly lost everything.  Their lives were turned upside down and I'm sure they were asking themselves what else could go wrong.

These people had a choice...just like we have a choice.  We can allow the enemy to "steal, kill and destroy" our lives by telling us that we have no hope.  Or, we can fight back and not allow the trials of life to destroy us.  When it seems that all hope is lost, we have to remember that hope can be found, maybe in something as simple as looking forward to lunch with a friend, planning a short hike or a movie night or even picking up a hobby that you haven't done for awhile.  Take each day one at a time.  Soon enough something bigger than tomorrow will come again and hope will be restored.  

Stay steady...persevere...fight back...trust in God...and you will receive victory.

Beauty

Today is a day filled with beauty.  Beauty in the weather that He has prepared for this day; that I have the day off of work; that I get to spend the day with an amazing friend; that life is sweeter today than yesterday!  

There are seasons of question and seasons of recognition.  Today marks a season of recognition.  God's love is beautiful, I recognize it and I am thankful!

Something On My Mind

Ever have something on your mind that you just can't put into words/print?  There are several things rolling around in this brain of mine...posts that I have started but just can't seem to finish.  Ideas that keep bouncing around and don't seem to come out in an organized fashion - they make sense in my noggin, but are totally out of control when I try to write.

So what's up with that?  Am I not focused enough?  Am I giving in to too much distraction?  Have I lost the ability to write anything meaningful?  (don't answer that one) Or are the ideas just not seasoned enough to roll out onto my fingertips?  Hmmm....I'm going with the last one.

So here are 2 of the topics:  Evangelism as Multi-Level Marketing; and Jesus Eliminates the Middle Man.  Maybe you can see why they're taking some time to germinate and blossom.

So I think I'll just keep sitting on them until "the right time."  Meantime, here you are...a blog that has nothing meaningful to say. Hope you don't totally regret the 2 minutes of your life that you lost by reading.  :-)  If you feel like chiming in on the topics, feel free to comment!

New Day - Volunteer Schedules

This weekend rocked!  We had 110% cast member (volunteer) attendance at the 9:45 service of Sanctuary and 90% attendance at the 11:30 service.  Absolutely amazing...and the first of this kind of "show rate" since I began on staff a mere 75 days ago!  To what do I attribute this success?  First, a volunteer came into our offices last week and placed a personal call to every single cast member.  Second, a ton of time on my knees before God.  Now, onto next week...

I'm still of the firm belief that serving more than once a month is not only a "good idea," but is actually necessary to make the ministry what God intends it to be...both for the kids and, dare I say it, the cast members.  Kids and adults alike thrive in consistent, loving environments.  With cast members serving only once a month, does that create a consistent environment?

We have created a culture where no one wants to be inconvenienced, but yet they want to feel needed.  A culture where folks want to feel like they have a purpose, a stake in something bigger than themselves, but they don't want to feel "trapped" by commitment.  Reality is...we can't have it all without some level of sacrifice.  

As I review the schedule for October, I am asking God for the level of commitment that He desires...and the ability for me to push for that commitment from our cast members.

Here's a recent post you might find interesting about this particular subject.  http://jabberfrog.com/2008/09/29/maximizing-volunteers/

Detox for the Soul

Curious - what does Detox for the Soul mean?  It came up because it is a "tag line" that we have adopted at Sanctuary.  At first, the line confused me...but the more I think about it, the more it is becoming a "vision" that I can grasp.  Before I "vamp" on what it means to me, I want to hear from you. 

If you are a Christ follower, what does Detox for the Soul mean to you?  Chime in!

Exclamation Point

I love me a good Exclamation Point!!  In recent years, I feel like everything I have to say in writing deserves this high form of punctuation - placing emphasis on the preceding string of words as if to say "pay attention because I mean it."  But does each and every sentence really have to have that much impact?  I don't know...it's a hard question that I have to ask myself.

So here's my answer...My name is Robyn Brinkley and I am an Exclamation Point Addict!  I would submit myself to a 12 step program, but frankly, I love my Exclamation Point way too much to give it up!  And many times when I sit down to write, it's because I feel God is laying something on me to share, and He deserves such awesome emphasis!  (Is one of the signs of an addiction "rationalization?")

So expect to continue to see this weighty punctuation mark in most anything I write, from e-mails and thank you notes to blogs cuz I'm not givin' it up.  I'm not really sure why I'm even writing about punctuation right now...but it's kind of fun - and it takes my mind off of my other addiction - tea...I'm out of tea right now, so here come the exclamation points!!!!!

Children's Ministry Internships

We are looking to develop a children's ministry internship program and I am wondering who of you have implemented such a program.  I have a few questions:

• What kind of response do you get from colleges - local? out of state?
• What is the rate of return - are interns generally interested in future full-time employment with your organization?
• Do you feel this is a good avenue for finding future leaders for your church?

It seems to me that so many in children's ministry seem to be "seasoned" and for us to be innovative and prepared for the future, we need an influx of younger, hungrier people with new and edgier ideas.  What do you think?

Family Sunday

Went very well!  Kids actually enjoyed being in Big Church - especially getting to surf beach balls throughout the auditorium.  Looks like we'll do it again!  And...they all came back to Sanctuary Kids this past week, so no fallout!

Family Sunday

This weekend we are trying out what we are calling "Family Sunday" at Sanctuary.  We are inviting our 1st - 5th graders into Big Church with mom and dad.  The service will be kid friendly with an extra transition (to combat those focus challenged), worship will be lively and includes songs that the kids are familiar with, and the message will be shortened with the idea of being in and out in 60 minutes or less (we usually run 75 minutes).  We have prepared activity sheets to be passed out at the door tailored to the topic of the day - "Would you rather be the seed...or the fruit?"

The whole idea is to promote the family while exposing kids to the "look, feel and smell" of Big Church, in hopes that when they grow up they will always return to what's familiar...the church!  In order for this to be most effective, I believe we must be confident enough in our children's program so that after Family Sunday, the kids will return to their own age-appropriate church experience without hesitation while still looking forward to the next Family Sunday.

Here it goes - Beta Test 1.0!

Where Did Time Go?

Yesterday life as I know it changed completely.  The day seemed bright enough and started out as any Monday with staff meetings and a debrief about the weekend's church experience.  Then, about 11:00 I received the first text message:

"Can you pick me up during 6th hour?"

My reply:  "Why?"

"Because Kyle's mom said the DMV gets really crowded after school, so I want to go early."

Yes, that's right - the Department of Motor Vehicles.  Yesterday, my son got his driver's permit.  Suddenly, the day wasn't as bright and it certainly wasn't business as usual!  Don't get me wrong - I'm very happy for Josh as he passes this milestone in his life.  But, it reminded me of my age (it's so cruel that when he gets older, so do I).  More importantly, however, it made it clear that the days of hugging, tickling and smooching all over Josh are done.  He is closer to manhood today than yesterday and my role as his mother is evolving. 

I will hold onto the memories of Josh as a child fondly and try to embrace the new experiences of him as a young "man."  A bright side - with his freedom, I gain some freedom.  Oh the cruel irony...

What Would You Do?

I heard a very intriguing story the other day that made me question - What Would I Do?  Here's the story (I don't know all of the details, so forgive me if I take "Hollywood liberties" to make the story fit my purposes):

The Mesa campus of a multi-campus church (you can guess which one) had been meeting for quite some time in what I would call a "permanent portable" space.  The space was small, but had been modified to fit the growing number of people attending each weekend.  One recent Thursday afternoon, a new fire marshall came to inspect the space.  No big deal, right?  Well, the new fire marshall wasn't as accommodating as previous officials and informed the staff that they were only approved for occupancy of up to 49 people.  And, in fact, if even 1 more person occupied that space on Sunday, there would be arrests.

Well, of course there were definitely more than 49 people expected in about 2 days!

I'm going to pause right here to set the stage:  As a multi-campus site, there are screens, projectors and satellite equipment to consider, stages, intelligent lighting, band and sound equipment, and that doesn't even account for the children's space.  It's Mesa in August, so temperatures are well above 100 degrees, and things like the kid's "moon bounce" literally melt outside.  There are only 2 days to figure this out, only 1 actual business day.

Now - What Would YOU do?

How many of us would realize that there's not much that can be done for this weekend, cancel church for just this Sunday and focus on getting a space available for the following weekend?  Who could blame us for this decision...really? There's only 1 business day to come up with a solution, and after all, it would be a huge stretch to even get something in place for the next week!  I would be willing to bet that the majority of people would take this approach.

How the staff reacted to this adversity is what sets them apart from the majority.  They kicked it into high gear, rented tents and cooling equipment and moved it outside.  That Sunday, when the officials arrived, there were no laws violated and people were praising God showing that nothing will stop those who really desire to worship Him!

So - What Would You do?  When things get tough, are you willing to do what it takes to persevere?  Who or what is your "fire marshall?" Maybe it's a family member. Maybe it's coworkers who seem to want to quash your dreams.  Maybe it's your financial situation.  Call on the strength given to us by our God and show your "fire marshall" that you mean business!

Sanctuary

When I first heard the new name of our church, I went back to the Disney version of The Hunchback of Notre Dame, where the Hunchback screams out "Sanctuary, Sanctuary."  Before getting involved in "the ministry," I remember feeling Sanctuary as a church attender - never wanting to leave the safety within those walls.

We launched the new name and new look this Sunday and it was a huge success!  The launch included a totally revamped children's ministry.  The place had a buzz about it!  In time, we will be able to measure the success through growth...but for now, the only way I can describe it is the place felt "light" and alive instead of the heavy, dull feeling that it had just the week before.

Check out the new Sanctuary Kids logo - I love it and look forward to all that God is going to do through this program and this church!  Kuddos to the entire team and incredible volunteers that pulled it all together.

Comfort

"In the multitude of my anxieties within me, Your comforts delight my soul."  Psalm 94:19 NIV

'The minute I said, "I'm slipping, I'm falling," your love, God, took hold and held me fast.  When I was upset and beside myself, you calmed me down and cheered me up.' Psalm 94:18-19 Msg

Kids in Big Church

I have recently been challenged to consider the merit of kids attending church with their parents as a family.  Like many people "my age" (whatever that means), I spent many Sundays sitting next to mom and dad in church, trying very hard not to wiggle and fidget, and equally hard not to fall asleep.  I can honestly say I don't remember a single sermon.  But, I did learn many things that have shaped my Christian walk today:

• How to use a hymnal and the difference between it and the Bible;
• That pews are very uncomfortable - especially the ones without padding;
• That the pastor always has 3 points;
• All of the words to "Come Just As You Are;"
• That lunch after church is always crowded, but extra tasty.
• Sorry - okay, seriously I learned:  What it means to worship God through song, prayer and the occasional "responsive reading;"
• Respect for those around me as they may be worshipping differently than me;
• Respect for Scripture as it is read aloud and studied;
• The power of the family all believing in Christ together as we discussed the sermon during the extra tasty lunch at the local pancake house.

What I didn't learn in "Big Church" was how the foundational principles of faith in Christ could be applied to me as a child.  

As a Children's Pastor, my main mission is to do everything possible to bring children to Christ by first laying the foundational principles of God's love as evidenced by His son's life, death and resurrection...THEN teach them how to apply these principles now and for the rest of their lives.  I believe to do this effectively we must have an engaging, relevant, age-appropriate service each and every week.  

But, are we sacrificing some of the importance of family in ministry together?  Maybe a little - but I still believe kids in Big Church each week is not the answer.  However, I'm opening up to a new possibility - offering a "family friendly" service once a quarter where kids age 3 and up attend Big Church with mom and dad - giving kids a chance to hear, see, smell and feel what it means to share the experience of God with the entire family.  The conversations at the local IHOP may change a bit, but the difference will likely be seen years later when these kids have children of their own and are as engaged in church as they were when they were kids...because they know what to expect.

What do you think?

Question

Want to hear your thoughts on this - please post your comment!  

Do you prefer a church service that is "roughly" 1 hour, with room for the Holy Spirit to "move" within worship or the message?  Or, do you prefer a predictable church service that starts on time and always ends on time, where worship and the message do not vary in length from week to week?

If you prefer a more "rigid" service that lasts exactly 1 hour each week, do you feel this gives the Holy Spirit time to move or are we putting "Him" in a box?

I can argue either way - just wondering what you think.

Something Bigger than Myself

We hear all the time that we need to be involved in something "bigger than ourselves."  This is a great way to sum up being in ministry and sounds so noble...so honorable.  But the truth is, it is really really hard!  Sometimes I just want to be myself, not something bigger.  Sometimes I just want to sink into my fuzzy couch and tune the rest of the world totally out.  Tonight is one of those times!

Truth is - God's calling for my life is much larger than I ever expected.  Tonight I am looking for God's strength, energy, clarity, focus and His love.  Tonight is a "valley" time, and I know that He will pull me out of this valley and I will soon be once again on the mountain top.  Thankfully, there are two good things about being in the valley - first, there's no place but up; second, I can't rely on myself to climb out - I am forced to put my total trust, faith and hope in God.  

Albeit difficult, the valley is a good place to be...really?  I mean...really.  "Open up before God, keep nothing back; he'll do whatever needs to be done; He'll validate your life in the clear light of day and stamp you with approval at high noon."  Psalms 37:5-8 Msg.

Conduct

Working at Panera Bread because the new offices don't yet have internet or phone access.  After sitting here for hours, in the same booth sipping my iced tea that I paid way too much for, I am beginning to lose my patience.  Not because of any circumstance necessarily, but honestly because I have so much to do and all I can think of is how certain body parts are crying out in pain from this booth, and how I am going to smell like toasted focaccia bread when I get home.  :-)  

As my patience grows thin, I am reminded of a scripture I heard this morning in Philippians:

"Whatever happens, conduct yourselves in a manner worthy of the gospel of Christ.  Then, whether I come and see you or only hear about you in my absence, I will know that you stand firm in one spirit, contending as one man for the faith of the gospel..." Philippians 1:27

Paul wrote this in a letter to the Philippians, reminding them that they are to live all of the qualities of Christ whether he (Paul, their "pastor") is present or not.  Qualities like compassion, kindness, patience, gentleness, humility, honor, hope, faith and love, to name just a few.  I am embarrassed to say that several times today I failed to uphold more than one of those qualities. 

Today, it seems that Paul was writing to me directly.  Do I conduct my life in a manner worthy of the gospel of Christ no matter what I am doing?  Do I represent Christ the same when I am "working" as children's pastor at People's Church as I do when I am at home or with my friends and family - or sitting at Panera Bread, or in rush hour traffic?  Hmmm...good question.  How about you?

Moving Too Fast

Does it seem that the world is moving too fast lately?  Examples:

• My son is less than a month away from getting his drivers permit.
• My 44th birthday was 2 days ago - where did 43 years go?
  
• The first week of my new job as Children's Pastor at Peoples Church has already passed.
• My last post was 16 days ago...ugh.
• It's already 11:45 and I have accomplished very little.

Time is racing by!  Lately I have been feeling the heaviness of how short our time is on this earth.  

'He who testifies to all these things says it again "I am on my way.  I will be there soon."' Rev 22:20 The Msg.

I am blown away by how much there is to do, and it begs the question - Why is everything so urgent?  Immediate deadlines:  relaunch of Peoples Church including total overhaul of children's ministry by August 17th (remember, I came on staff July 15th). Over at LC.tv the Tulsa campus is launching a 7th experience this weekend (decided last week).  School starts earlier than ever in less than 3 weeks.  Blog updates, emails, telephone calls, newsletters all need to happen to relay the urgency of God's plan.

Why do we do this to ourselves?  Why retool an entire church?  Why launch more experiences, pushing staff and resources to the limit?  Why set deadlines that are seemingly impossible to achieve?  Why not just slow down and maybe smell the roses a bit?

Why?  Because God is moving faster, and we have to move with Him.  As each day passes, we are one day closer to His return and it is our responsibility to make sure that every ear has heard the Truth of hope through Jesus Christ.  Each night, as I lay my head on my pillow (right after I remind myself that I need to fit some time in to wash the linens this weekend), I pray for the energy and stamina to keep up with the One who is omnipresent, and ask that since I can't be at all places at one time, that He move me purposely, albeit swiftly, towards His destination.  I pray that as things swirl at a pace that few people could have ever imagined, He keep my focus on the one true purpose...to share the love of Jesus Christ to those whose paths I cross.

Leadership Attracts Talent

Funny how things come full circle. More than a week ago I posted about talent, and how I admire talented people. This past week, I was amazed and more than a bit challenged by several of the extremely talented people I admire. How did I get so lucky to be in the presence of such genius?

A little background: Each year LifeChurch.tv presents a sermon series called At the Movies. A few years ago we began decorating the campus lobbies with various movie scenes - which quickly became a "competition" between campuses to see who could decorate the best. Well, the Tulsa campus has lead the pack the past 2 years, and this year looks to be no exception.

I have been blessed to be a part of this tradition since its inception 3 years ago...blessed to put in 4-18+ hour days in a row; blessed to twist vines and make cave walls and tree trunks out of butcher paper until my fingertips bleed: blessed to navigate the scissor lift within inches of the freshly papered walls while my legs shake from fatigue; blessed to maintain some measure of decorum (albeit not much) when I find out we need 1,000 more feet of butcher paper.

Blessed to watch a vision come together; blessed to see dozens of people put all of their heart and soul into something bigger than themselves; blessed to watch the faces of those who come into the church for the first time during this series; blessed to be a part of what will hopefully be hundreds of changed lives; blessed to be surrounded with talent beyond my imagination.

I asked myself many times during those 18 hour days - What will happen to me when I leave this place and all these gifted people to venture where God has me next? Will I ever be able to be a part of something so big and so amazing again...after all, I have no Talent! Honestly, I became very afraid! Then, at 2:00 in the morning as the Associate Pastor and I were 20 feet in the air hanging the last of the paper, it came to me...Share the vision, and the talent will come. A truly humble leader will attract talent.

That's why the Tulsa campus of LifeChurch.tv does what it does so well...it is staffed with humble hearts gifted with leadership that the people follow. Each weekend there are close to 300 people who volunteer to make 6 experiences happen with excellence. Every time we put out the call for people to serve the community through missions or serve each other through life groups, they answer. When we ask them to help us transform the lobby after they have already put in 8-10 hours at their real job, they appear.

But with the gift of leadership comes a huge level of responsibility - first - remain humble, and second - be a leader to those whom God is calling you to lead.

So although I don't have artistic talent, I pray that I will always remain humble and recognize those around me whom God has gifted. While I will likely never be able to paint, sculpt, act, sing or play a musical instrument, I hope I will always recognize and admire those who can...and encourage them to use their gifts in such a way to honor God and inspire people.

Talent

I am always amazed to see people with talent. My mom has artistic talent - she currently works in glass fusion but is always great at anything she tries. At work, I am surrounded by people with speaking and musical talent.

Today, I had the pleasure of watching a friend's son in the play Willy Wonka Jr. He played the part of Charlie, had a ton of lines to learn and he performed several songs. The play was put on by a troop of young people who participated in acting camp this summer and every single kid involved had incredible talent. My friend's son was no exception - he nailed every line and sang his heart out - he's really quite good. He is full of talent and I hope that he continues his acting and singing so I can say "I knew him when he was a kid."

I really admire talented people! I only wish I had a bit...but God had to make some people average, or else we would never recognize those people with real talent. Way to go Levi - you did a great job today!

News

Last week I posted about stepping out of the boat in obedience like Peter, and the "sphere of influence" God has granted me. Well, I am being obedient and have climbed over the side of the boat, and my sphere of influence is becoming broader. My feet are standing on the top of the water and the good news - my flip flops are dry.

If you haven't already heard the news, here it is. God has asked me to leave my position at the LifeChurch.tv Tulsa campus and embark on a new adventure. I know - I still can't believe it myself. I figured that I would grow old and die here and they would have to shove me out the door in a coffin. But, God has different plans. Effective July 15th I will become the Children's Pastor at People's Church in Tulsa.

Leaving something as amazing, as God gifted, as blessed, as impactful, as incredible as LifeChurch.tv - well, why would anyone leave? Only two reasons - either because you are certifiably insane or...because God said so. I know God has this all worked out - after all, He said "For I know the plans I have for you...plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."Jeremiah 29:11.

By allowing me to serve at the Tulsa campus of LC.tv for these handful of years, God has truly blessed me beyond measure. I am thankful for each child that ever walked through "the yellow walls" and every person I have had the opportunity to serve with. I will miss this place, its staff and most of all, its people.

As I step out on the water, please pray with me that my focus will remain on His will and I will not look down...I'm not a very good swimmer!

Orbit and Other Stuff

Isn't it amazing when God speaks? Do you ever just wonder why, with all that He has to do, does He take the time to speak to us? Here's scripture from two separate devotions today:

"...Peter...walked on the water to go to Jesus. But when he saw that the wind was boisterous he was afraid..." Matthew 14:29-30

"The Lord is more pleased when we do what is right and just than when we offer him sacrifices." Proverbs 21:3

First - with all of the rain here in Oklahoma, it seems like we have been walking on water for days.

Okay - back to business. One of my questions in my previous post was "What is my sphere of influence?" The easy answer: those within my orbit - kids and parents in our children's ministry, family, friends, co-workers, etc. Right now though, my sphere is changing. God is moving me beyond what I ever considered doing.

When he brought me to children's ministry, I thought He was stinkin' hilarious. Kids? Yeah...right. Several years later, I recognize that His purpose was right on - and I'm no longer laughing. He has equipped me with passion and skills that I never imagined. And now, He's asking me to step out of the boat in the midst of a very boisterous wind and trust Him to stay the water so that it is rock solid for walking.

I pray that He will be pleased as I step out onto the water and that He will expand my sphere of influence in the way that He sees fit.

Orbit

Lately I've heard the word "orbit" a ton. Usually "orbit" is related to something in space - like the earth which orbits the sun, the moon which orbits the earth, or a space craft which orbits whatever it was sent to fly around. The context in which I have recently heard the term used was in the "business" of ministry, although I'm certain it's a new buzz word in other business sectors as well.

First, a definition:

orbit: 1 a: a path described by one body in its revolution about another; also : one complete revolution of a body describing such a path b: a circular path2: a range or sphere of activity or influence . Merriam Webster.

The first question that comes to mind is what are we orbiting - or more appropriately, what am I orbiting? What is my life revolving around? The "church" answer would be that my life revolves around God and around His purpose for me. But, being human, that's not always true. Minute by minute, my revolution focus changes - one minute it's my job, one minute my son, another my friend(s) - in short it's all too often...myself.

Ouch! That's not pretty, especially considering what God has called me to do in service to Him! While there's a vast space within my orbit which allows for life influences like family and career, the very center must be God himself. While it's easy to focus on those things within close range of my orbit, without a very center to revolve around (God), then there's truly no orbit at all.

What's the center of your orbit?

Check back in a few days - this topic has got my mind really thinking (scary, I know). The next question relates to the second definition - what is my sphere of influence? And another question I may try and tackle - What is God's orbit? Tell me what you think!

Spiritual Pride

One of the pastors I work with used the term "spiritual pride" during our staff meeting recently. He was describing why he felt that churches are divided and why they don't really want to come together, even though they have the same main purpose.

This term really stuck with me. I often check out other churches, both in person and on the internet, and have found myself exhibiting a bit of this "spiritual pride." Being on staff at LifeChurch.tv has been an amazing adventure for me. I have had the opportunity to work with the best of the best - people who eat, sleep and breathe our core value of Excellence.

Surrounded daily by these type of people sometimes conjures up the thought - "my church is better than your church." But, is my church really "superior?" If so, as a children's pastor at my church, then does that mean my ministry is superior to children's ministries at other churches?? Well...there it is...and it is truly ugly! Spiritual Pride! Yuck!

Truth is, if we have the same goal - an eye on the true prize - then it doesn't really matter who has the best culture, most dynamic ministry or gets the most media attention - no church (or ministry) is more superior than any other. God reminded me that it doesn't matter where I work so long as I'm actually working for the creator of the church himself - Jesus Christ. The ministry will only be as good as its purpose, and if the purpose is to further the Kingdom of Christ, then there's no need for spiritual pride. God doesn't need us to compete with each other - His love is big enough for all of us.

It's time for all of us to believe that we are not in competition, and instead begin helping each other. So, step outside your comfort zone and check out Christ's church - no matter whether it's First Baptist or First Assembly...I dare say that many are full of the same greatness as your church. Lets drop the spiritual pride and share the spiritual purpose.

Vacation

Yes, I'm on V-A-C-A-T-I-O-N! Because of gas prices, Josh and I decided to stay home. So what have I done? Well...(I know you love my lists):

• Cleaned my apartment.
• Took Josh fishing - caught 2 small mouth bass myself (I know, right?).
• Worked Tuesday morning on kids' camp stuff (has to get done - vacation or not).
• Met with a volunteer.
• Checked e-mail.
• Updated my Facebook page (help - I wish I knew how to use this resource better).
• Took a couple of big fat naps.
• Met my best friends for a fun lunch.
• Talked on the phone (oh yeah, I still need to call my Mom).
• Researched church websites.
• Drank a lot of tea (I love tea).

Okay, so it doesn't sound like a lot of fun, but I am enjoying it! I still have 2-1/2 days remaining, and so far, my only plans are to sit by the pool and get some sun, pick up my glasses (yuck), and do some reading. Oh yeah...and drink some more tea! I'll be "back in the saddle" Saturday...meantime, it's vacation, vacation, vacation!

Take a Hike

No, I'm not telling you, my loyal blog readers, to take a figurative hike...but it wouldn't hurt to take a physical hike. (Actually, maybe it would hurt. I did such a thing on Friday, and boy am I paying for it today! Now, I'm a physically active person. I work out and do strength training at least 3 times a week, and I'm not afraid of a good physical challenge. Which is why I'm so amazed at the pain I feel today! But you know the saying, no pain, no gain.)

Was the hike worth it? Yup. Here's an account (yes, a list) of what I experienced:

• 2 turtles.
• 6 white tailed deer.
• 1 green snake (actually, I can appreciate its beauty...even though it was a snake).
• 1 lizard (can't recall what type).
• 2 squirrels.
• Numerous buzzards and other birds.
• 1 salamander.
• Hundreds of tadpoles.
• 1 frog.
• 3 different species of cray fish.
• Many deep valleys and tall hills (yes, I climbed them).
• Acres of waving red clover.
• 1 stream of cool rushing water (perfect for tired feet).
• 1 peanut butter and apple jelly sandwich (yum).
• A great day with an incredible friend.

Point of this post? That you should get yourself outdoors and enjoy everything that God created. I'm not saying that you have to get extreme and hike 12 miles, but just get out. God has created a whole world just for us. God created the sun and the stars, He created all of the creatures of the earth and then He gave them to man "...have dominion over the fish of the sea, over the birds of the air, and over every living thing that moves on the earth." Gen 1:28 He wanted us to enjoy and appreciate His creation.

So why are you sitting inside, reading this blog? Turn off the computer, get out and enjoy all that God created for us. And as you marvel at the beauty, remember to give Him thanks!

Questions

The other day my 15 year old son asked me a question that I couldn't answer. I don't remember now what the question was exactly, but I remember my response, "you will have to ask God when you get to heaven." Go Mom! This response is way better than "ask your father." Pull in the "spiritual stuff!" Of course, at 15, he just rolled his eyes and walked away.

But this morning as I was reading the daily devotion in Utmost for His Highest, Oswald Chambers highlighted the following scripture:

"In that day you will ask Me nothing." John 16:23

To set the stage, Jesus was talking to His disciples about his death and resurrection and they were full of questions. He was assuring them that once the prophecy was fulfilled, they would have full understanding of what it meant. Well, duh! Of course they will understand what happened after the fact...it's the before part that was driving them crazy with questions!

Just like a little kid (or "not so little" like my 15 year old son), I have so many questions that I want to ask God when I get to sit at His feet in Heaven. But this scripture reminded me that I won't even need to ask...once it's all said and done, it will all be "said and done." I will be able to look back and recognize all of the amazingly intricate things/events/happenings that God knit together that were part of my tenure on the planet Earth. There will be no need to ask questions but to rest in the fact that He was my Creator, my Savior, my God.

But there's still one question - was it really necessary to create the dung beetle?

Need a Hug?

Well, I do. Today has been a long, difficult day. No reason really - can't blame it on the dreaded PMS, no one stole my favorite blankie or peed in my "Post Toasties," it's just been a long day. Sitting in my apartment alone, and no chance of a physical hug, I turned to the pages of the Bible.

"Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, yes I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand." Isaiah 41:10.

Now THAT's a hug! I could still really use a strong, full on physical hug, but as I close my eyes and visualize My God holding me up with His "righteous right hand," that's better than any earthly embrace I could ever imagine. As always, God is ready and waiting to meet me when I take the time to turn to Him.

Life - God Isn't Done With Me Yet

These last two weeks I have been a bad, bad blogger! Things have been crazy busy and I just haven't taken the time to write as much as I like. Please accept my apologies. Here's a rundown of what's been going on (yes, another list):

• Life.

Okay, so it's not really a list...just a single bullet point. I could bore you with all of the details, but isn't your life busy too? I mean, really...you may not face all of the same challenges that I do, but I am certain that your list is at least as long as mine! See if you can relate: parenting (for me, being a single parent - does that count twice?), job, friends, life group, laundry, groceries, going to the gym, trying to fit in a hobby/fun activity, reading, writing/blogging, and...sleep! And that doesn't even count any extra responsibilities that find their way onto the calendar. Whew - I'm exhausted!

There are days when I would love to curl up in a ball under my covers and check out! But today, I was reminded by an amazing speaker Perry Noble, if I am still alive on this earth, God isn't done with me. So even though I'm busier than ever, and I pour myself into bed each night exhausted, I wake up each morning facing a new day with the anticipation that God has something amazing planned just for me. I still have to accomplish all of my responsibilities, but by reminding myself that God isn't done with me I am going to move into the "anticipation line," out of the "aggravation line" and do my best to fulfill His commission for my Life with a capital L.

Which line are you in - the anticipation line, or the aggravation line?

How Do You Hear From God?

In this weekend's LifeChurch.tv message, Craig listed three things to do when you are facing a crisis of belief and in the valley.

• Listen
• Write
• Wait

1. Listen for a "still small voice," a thunderous voice or maybe even several voices grappling in your head. Listen to the gut feeling that literally has your stomach twisted into a knot. Listen to that nagging feeling that just won't seem to go away. Listen, and write.
2. Write - even if you think that you can't. Grab a pen, paper and write anything that comes into your mind. Maybe it's a list, maybe it's just random words, or maybe you are an aspiring author and your thoughts are in order and eloquent - it doesn't matter. I remember clearly a time when God was speaking to me, but not in full thoughts - just random words bouncing swiftly in and out of my head. I began to write them down feverishly until there was nothing left. Once complete, I looked at my paper full of single words and somehow, though not in paragraph form and completely void of punctuation, the jumble of words made perfect sense. Write, and wait.
3. Wait. For many of us, this is the hardest part. Sometimes a crisis of belief is so overwhelming that it becomes all consuming, and waiting a single minute seems impossible. But you can do it...God's timing is perfect. Remember, we accepted God's love in faith, so we can wait on Him in faith.

Sometimes in our logic and haste to resolve life's problems we settle for second best...but if we will just listen, write and wait, we will receive His perfect solution.

What about you - what is the most difficult step for you?

This Weekend...a List

• LifeKIDs camp registration is off the charts.
• LifeChurch.tv Mother's Day Child Dedications are rolling in so fast that I can't keep up.
• We have babies coming out our ears and a new "crop" expected to be born in the next 2 months.
• God is blessing this ministry beyond anything we could have ever imagined.
• There are a lot of hurting single moms.
• God is raising up women to mentor these hurting single moms.

Is He calling YOU?

Guest Blog

I read something a friend recently wrote and it touched me so much that I asked permission to share. If we were lucky enough to have family who helped lay our Christian foundation, it is important for us to honor them with our time and prayers...and tell them Thank You! Here it is - Thanks Amy Kirkpatrick for sharing!

"I went to see my great-grandmother the other day at the nursing home. She’s 99 and it’s a rare day that she remembers any of our names. But, this day was a good day! Not good because she knew who I was, but good because of the moment. I showed up briefly to say hi and to be on my way. My dad was there and as always, asked me to play the piano. I didn’t have any of my music with me and was very hesitant, but I knew how much it meant to him. He found a hymnal for me and in my head I was thinking, “Yeah! Not only do I get to sight read songs I’ve never played, but it’s a hymnal!” ha ha. I played a few songs and the last song I played was “The Old Rugged Cross”. As I started, I began to sing the words. My allergies were acting up and my voice was hoarse, but shortly after I began I heard my great-grandmother start singing. She sang every word of the song from memory, as I played it through 3 times. When I finished, she said, “Now that was fun.” My eyes started to water, because at the end of the day, even though she probably didn’t recognize me, she knew the words to this amazing song about Christ. Even though her mind confuses her, her one constant was and is still God.

After a moment, she looked at me and said, “I have been blessed with great children and I hope the good Lord lets me stay around longer, so that I can just be with them.”

Isn’t it amazing the things the mind thinks of or remembers? To be in that moment and to see the thoughts of a mind that constantly searches, yet seems to be so founded in that one thing. Christ says he is not a God of confusion, but instead, gives our minds peace. I was left in this moment, in awe, completely able to see Christ’s beauty, wonder and power. It let me see a glimpse of everyone’s purpose in this world. I think at times we have a tendency to discount people because of their old age or health issues, but God never does. Every living person has a specific purpose in Christ. My great-grandmother, even in the midst of her fragile state, only claimed God."

Customer Service

What's up with customer service these days? From the check-out lines at Wally World to the drive-through window at McHeartAttack it seems like the world is full of angry, hateful mumblers just waiting for their shift to end. An example - when I get my morning Fruit and Yogurt Parfait from the Dollar Menu, I deposit my money at the first window with the lady in the headset who takes my $1.09 without ever looking up. Then I drive to the second window where my food is hanging out the window, flapping in the breeze like a ring waiting for the jouster to pick it off the hook. They are expecting me to roll through without engaging the person attached to the other end of the food, but I foil their plan every time! I actually stop, say hello, smile and tell them to have a great day, at which point they scowl as if to say "dare me."

There is one place that I always receive amazing service - a local Village Inn. Every Friday morning I meet my dad for breakfast, which we've been doing now for about 3 years. We began meeting at IHOP and fell in love with a waitress there named Tammy Queen (yes, that's her real name). Tammy actually began waiting on us when the other waitroids at IHOP didn't want to serve us - I guess we were too much trouble. You see, we actually expected our food to come out the way we ordered it...omelette not runny, food at least lukewarm...don't get me started.

Anyway - Tammy treats us so well, that when she left IHOP, we followed her to Village Inn. She genuinely cares - and she likes US! Tammy makes sure our food is what we ordered and fills our drinks when they're the slightest bit low. Since we are there every week, she even has our table set up with our drinks when we arrive. And...gulp...she smiles! She is the epitome of quality customer service! In return, she gets an amazing tip and she has become a good friend. Now...if I can just get her to church!

Her life is no better, nor worst than anyone else's - so what makes her stand out from others? It is because she cares about people.

There are many books written and hundreds of seminars about customer service - but the best demonstrations are in the Bible. Jesus gave us immeasurable examples of what it means to serve other people - his whole life was based on it. Why can't we take Jesus' example of "customer service" and enjoy serving each other, like He served the woman who risked everything to touch His robe; like He served the disciples when He washed their feet; like He served those whom He healed; like He served us when He accepted his death on the cross.

Do we treat everyone as if we may have to give up our lives for them someday? Do we even treat other people with civility, honor and humility? Don't get me wrong, I don't expect the Fruit and Yogurt Parfait out-the-window holder to give up her life for me, but it would be nice to know that she might actually care...just simply because.

When God Doesn't Make Sense

The next series here at LifeChurch.tv is on Habakkuk. God revealed to Habakkuk that He was going to use Babylon - the evil, unjust nation - to serve judgment on His people. What? Why in the world would God use a nation who thrives on stealing, killing and destroying to serve judgment on His own people? Why would he give Babylon the satisfaction?

"God, you're from eternity, aren't you? Holy God, we aren't going to die, are we? God, you chose Babylonians for your judgment work? Rock-Solid God, you gave them the job of discipline? But you can't be serious!..." Habakkuk 1:12-13 (The Message).

Sometimes, God just doesn't make sense. Sometimes, He asks things of us that require obedience - and seem illogical. And sometimes, obedience hurts. For me, I have tried of late to "reason away" what He's asked me to do because in my mind, it just doesn't seem right. I mean, why would God bring me to this place in my life only to downshift and take a different turn. I feel like I have been on the right path, have been obedient to His will for my life...why would he suddenly ask for what seems to me to be a detour?

The truth is...I don't know, but because He is my God, I will follow Him, no matter where He leads - even if it takes me awhile to act because I'm trying to argue my way out. (If you know me at all, then you know that I can argue with the best of them.) "The Sovereign Lord is my strength; he makes my feet like the feet of a deer, he enables me to tread on the heights." Habakkuk 3:18. (NIV) Just like Habakkuk, I will find my strength in God because He has given me faith that whatever His plan, it will be perfect. "'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'" Jeremiah 29:11

What about you? Does God always make sense?

Jericho - Blog from Cindy Beall

Well, today I'm not being original at all. I just read an incredible post by Cindy Beall and wanted to share. Cindy is an amazing woman of God, and if you don't already follow her blog, I would suggest that you add it to your faves. Here's the link to the article about Jericho. Keep Marching.

Ropes Course - Success Continued

Today the Tulsa campus team of Lifechurch.tv conquered a ropes course. The experience was incredible while also emotionally and physically exhausting. While I would not initially have thought of this experience as relating to the blog about Success, I have since changed my mind.

At the beginning of the day, we participated in several "team building" exercises which affirmed our belief and trust in each other. I'm sure many of you have participated in these things before and are not unfamiliar with the concept of "team." Turns out - our TEAM is pretty stinkin' awesome!!! One of the elements was a teeter-tawter of massive proportions. We were all required to be on the element at the same time, and then figure out how to make the teeter-tawter balance. Sounds easy...but of course, if it were easy, it wouldn't be on the course! After many boughts of gut-wrenching laughter, and several attempts at different scenarios, we finally settled down and got the thing balanced.

After team building, we tackled the ropes course, starting with climbing a rock wall and ending with a zip line. Relatively simple - unless, of course, you are afraid of heights or have the balance of a 3-legged bull. Although I don't fear heights, my balance is less than stellar...okay, it stinks big time! But, I figured, No Big Deal, right? Well, this was truly a lonely experience! After spending all morning working with 8 other people, knowing I can trust them to "get my back," here I was all alone with just my harness and lovely helmet!

As a team, we experienced success...together, we reached our goal. But it was when I was by myself that success was elusive. My goal was to get through the elements not only once, but twice, so that I could be better the second time. A worthy goal, but complete realization was not found today. After I conquered the swinging 4 x 4s, rope wall and tight wire, I recognized that the balance of this 43 year old body was not sufficient to tackle two other elements. The legs were shaky and I just wasn't interested in doing the splits between two tires swinging 30 feet in the air. I had to back off and admit defeat.

Defeat...but, not entirely. I will not allow it to overshadow the successes...one element at a time. So overall - was it a success? Absolutely! Next goal...hot, long, soaking bath!

Success Part Deaux

In a previous post, we defined success as "the complete realization of a worthy goal" and I shared some of the areas for which I strive for Success. In this post, I want to talk about being a parent.

How hard is it to be a successful parent nowadays? For me, there are days when keeping my hands from locking around Josh's throat is a worthy goal, but obviously that's short lived and won't necessarily be measured in eternity (unless I actually go through with it I guess). But what will be measured is how I raise my son to honor, love, fear and reflect God. Remember - to be a Success, I have to have a goal, it must be worthy (i.e. world changing), and there must be complete realization. So daily, I have to ask myself:

• Does Josh know who God is?
• Does he know the sacrifice that Jesus made for him on the cross?
• Has he accepted Jesus as his personal Lord and Savior?
• Does he honor God in his speech, actions and relationships?
• Does Josh feel safe, knowing that he has a mom who loves him unconditionally and a God who knows the count of every hair on his head?

It doesn't matter how many sacrifices I make to raise him, or how many times I fail, but what does matter is am I leading Josh to have a personal relationship with the risen Christ. In the end, this is all that will be measured. Will I be successful? His life depends on it!

Weakness

I will get back to Success in a few days, but today God is revealing a different post. Weakness. Webster defines weak as "lacking strength," "not able to withstand attack." Most of us can identify with being weak throughout our lives, and often our thoughts turn to tumultuous times. There are many of these examples in my history, and their memory is generally engulfed in darkness...the illness I endured that nearly put me in a wheelchair not once, but twice; the loss of my marriage; losing our house and all of the other material possessions for which I worked so hard for 15 years. (Okay - before I go any further - don't cry for me because although these times really stunk, I am thankful because they made me who I am today.)

Today, however, I am facing a different kind of weakness. Weakness in managing my blessings. How do I keep focused on Him and His purpose when He has blessed me so much? Seems crazy - you're probably wondering what in the freak is my problem. It's not a problem really, just a recognition that if I am not careful, I will fall into the trap of being totally focused on my blessings, and not on the blesser!

2 Corinthians 12:9-10 says"But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persectuions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong." Father - I rest in my weakness...work in me your perfect plan, grant me focus, make me the leader, the mother, the partner you want me to be and help me to manage the blessings you have bestowed.

Success

Do you ever hear "she's a successful businesswoman" or "he's a successful author." For many years (more than I'd care to count), I strived to be a success in my field as a contract negotiator. I defined success mostly by how many deals I closed, how much money I made, and how quickly I climbed the "ladder." But since my focus has changed, so has my definition of success.

My dad always said success is the "complete realization of a worthy goal." To break it down, there are 3 key elements:

1. Goal - can't measure success without a goal to achieve.
2. Worth - is the goal actually something that will make a change - dare I say - change the world.
3. Realization - actually achieving the goal and, thereby, changing the world.

I have many opportunities for success - as a parent, within relationships and in ministry. I will share some of them with you in the next post. Meantime - I really want to hear from you. What is your definition of success, and what are you doing towards achievement? Come on now - let's get a good conversation going.

Live to Be 150?

The other night there was a show on television about living to be 150 years old. Now, I know that Noah, Abraham, and many other Bible characters lived for hundreds of years, but seriously - in the 21st Century, who wants to live that long? As my body deteriorates, and my short-term memory gets shorter, how long do I really want to live on this earth? BTW - we heard a couple of statistics - if you're married more than 5 years, add 1 year to your life...if you're divorced, subtract 8 years. Now, who figured out those statistics?

As a Christian, I have the promise of an amazing eternity to look forward to! As far as I'm concerned - bring it on! (No, I'm not suicidal or asking to be hit by a bus - just comfortable with the fact that I know where I'm going when I'm gone.)

More important than how long I'm going to live is what am I doing in the days, years, even decades that I'm commissioned to this planet to make sure that others join me in eternity? So instead of spending my days figuring out how to live to be 150, I am focusing on what impact I can have in the current day I've been given. What about you? How long do you want to live and what do you want to do with your days?

Thoughts for Today and Random To Do List

• Baptisms this weekend - AMAZING! Don't know total #s yet, but know the pool was c-o-l-d!
• I love kids!
• 'Kids love candy
• Candy is an essential element of negotiating for good behavior (aka bribery).
• To Do: Buy more candy for next weekend's experiences.
• Teenage boys are aliens from some other universe!
• Things I Need to Learn: How to communicate with aliens, especially regarding answering the cell phone when Mom calls, and making sure said alien has a ride home when Mom is at work.
• To Do: Find a book on common forms of alien communication, both written and verbal.
• Thankful List:
• Alien from another universe.
• Amazing date night - teriyaki salmon...yum yum!
• My campus pastor - I love him very much - he's the greatest guy in the world (he told me to write this).
• You - cuz you read this to the end.

What about you - can you make teriyaki salmon?

Honor God and Inspire People

This weekend we had 3,088 people, 539 kids and 43 salvations at the Tulsa campus of LifeChurch.tv. It gets even better – throughout all of LC, more than 31,000 people heard about Christ, and 483 people were saved! Many churches throughout the nation don’t see this many salvations in an entire year – yet God used LC to reach these people in one single weekend!

Our Senior Pastor, Craig Groeschel, talked about our “cause” in his message this weekend – although the message was geared towards men, women are not excused because of our gender. God requires all of us to step up and be warriors for Him - and every warrior has a cause to fight for!

If you don’t have a personal “cause,” then I invite you to join me in mine…to honor God and inspire people! Of course, there are a number of things that I will fight to the death for – my son, LifeKIDs ministry, family, friends, my life group - by fighting for these, I believe I am honoring God’s plan for my life. So – I challenge each of you to ask the question - What am I willing to fight for…if even to the death? Please share - I'd love to hear your cause!

More About Easter

If you follow Swerve, you know that Craig has called the staff to fast. During one of my stomach-growling, grumpy phases this afternoon, I was praying and pulled out The Message. I was praying that God would give me and all of the staff focus on this symbolic weekend. As always, God delivered:

"But remember, dear friends, that the apostles of our Master, Jesus Christ, told us this would happen: "In the last days there will be people who don't take these things seriously anymore. They'll treat them like a joke, and make a religion of their own whims and lusts." ... "But you, dear friends, carefully build yourselves up in this most holy faith by praying in the Holy Spirit, staying right at the center of God's love, keeping your arms open and outstretched, ready for the mercy of our Master, Jesus Christ. This is the unending life, the real life! Go easy on those who hesitate in the faith. Go after those who take the wrong way. Be tender with sinners, but not soft on sin." Jude 17-23

Focus delivered, now bring on the people!

Easter

Are you ready for one of the most amazing weekends of the entire year? We as a society are so blessed to be able to celebrate the risen King at any church of our choosing, without oppression and without fear of being arrested…or even worst!! Living in a country that protects freedom of religion, we have the open opportunity to share with everyone we meet about the redeeming life, death and resurrection of our savior Jesus Christ. So, since we have this freedom…who are you inviting to church this Easter weekend?

Day Center

As part of our KONNECT program at LifeChurch.tv, our kids have an opportunity to earn a patch for participating in a micromission. Last Friday, 18 of the Tulsa KONNECT kids, and 41 adults went to the Tulsa Day Center for the Homeless. We took tons of fried chicken, biscuits and all the fixins and fed the homeless.

To say I was apprehensive about how the kids would handle this experience would be an understatement. Truth is - I was terrified! How would the kids respond to the homeless clients? Would they stare? Would they run scared? Would they refuse to even go into the place? And would they be able to hold out and not eat the chicken and biscuits themselves?

As usual, God surprised me! We set out the ground rules before we reached our destination: Stay with an adult at all times, no wandering around the center by yourself, don't eat the food because it's for those less fortunate, and...no staring! The kids walked in and it was obvious that God had prepared their hearts. Their job was to carry full plates of food to the clients who could not walk to the food line. Well, the kids were so amazing that they served every client - so no one had to serve themselves. Also - we had more than enough food - so the kids began carrying plates full of chicken and biscuits, offering seconds and thirds. Some even went around "taking orders," then rushing back to the kitchen and shouting them out like a short-order diner! It was awesome!

Best story of the event - one of our 7 yr olds went home to Mom and Dad and asked if they could invite a different homeless person to come to their house every night for dinner and to sleep. When asked where the homeless person would sleep, the child said he would give up his bed. When asked where he would sleep, he said "in your bed Dad." How stinkin' cool is that?

If you are in children's ministry, have you taken kids on a community mission? What has been your experience - I'd love to know!

Family

In the previous blog, I failed to mention my Family in my list of blessings. I’d love to say that it was purposeful because I planned to create another post about family, but that wouldn’t be truthful. The truth is – I take my family for granted! I have the most amazing parents! I am blessed with more than the standard Mom and Dad because I have a Stepmom and Stepdad as well. All four of my parents have been extremely instrumental in molding and shaping me into who I am today. Oh, and I have two sisters, who are both married, and I have 9 nieces and nephews between them. Whew – they are busy women – and I admire both of them for their accomplishments – God knew what He was doing when He gave me one child for certain!!

Okay – here’s another list – How my parents have blessed me:

Mom: Created in me a solid work ethic. Although she wanted to be home with us, she braved the work force and taught me that you push through and never quit. She also taught me to enjoy the sun and the beauty of nature – she has a remarkable green thumb. And don’t even get me started on what an amazing artist she is – no matter what medium she works in, she is incredible! Finally, she continually demonstrates grace…she has been through a lot in her life, and she approaches everyone with grace and dignity.

Dad: Demonstrated and encouraged leadership. No matter what he takes on, he always shakes out as the leader. His knowledge of God’s Word is impressive, and his passion for living out a life for Him is inspiring. Mom introduced me into a relationship with God, but my Dad and Stepmom watered and fed the relationship so it would bloom.

Stepmom: In one word – FUN! She always knows how to have fun. I love watching her with my son and my nieces and nephews – her house is where every kid wants to be! Even when there’s nothing to do, my son just loves to be at their house because somehow, some way, he’s going to enjoy himself. How many grandparents have a giant waterslide, a bounce house and a swing set all set up in the back yard? (Yes, my Dad has to put them all up, but it’s my Stepmom secretly prods the kids to ask grandpa.)

Stepdad: Independence – as a woman, I can do anything I set my mind to. From drywall and pouring concrete to changing my own oil – he taught us how to do it all. Of course, he appreciated us as girls too, but there’s no reason we shouldn’t learn how to correctly use a level and to set a chalk line!

Previously, I talked about us being the sum of all our parts – well, these are some of my parts. What parts has your family blessed you with?

How Did I Get Here?

Here goes - my first real blog post. Be gentle!

Life is good - and it makes me wonder How did I get here? I believe we are the sum of all of our parts - meaning that all of our past experiences, whether victories or failures, help to make us who we are today. There have been many failures in my past...certainly it seems more than the victories...but today, I wonder with all of the mistakes and stupidity, why does God still chose to bless me so enormously?

Today's blessings seem infinite! Don't get me wrong, the memories of mistakes and failures are still there and I pray that I will never stop learning from them. "But even if you should suffer for righteousness' sake, you are blessed." 1 Peter 3:13 There is another scripture that says something like "I consider it pure joy to suffer in Christ" (that's obviously a paraphrase cuz my brain can't remember where to find it). So here's the deal - even though I don't deserve them, here are the blessings I am counting today:

• That He works through me to change lives for His Kingdom;
• My incredible son who makes me laugh and makes me crazy at the same time - his big green eyes just make me melt;
• An amazing relationship in my life - not sure where it's going but I'm filled with almost explosive anticipation, enjoying every moment;
• Unbelievable friends and accountability partners who love me no matter what;
• The best place in the whole world to work, with the the strongest team of family sharing the most important purpose;
• Relationships with hundreds of children, parents and the best volunteers in the universe;
• Sunshine (although it's just barely peaking through the clouds today);
• And YOU - cuz if you are reading this, and got this far, then I haven't bored you to death and that makes me happy!

Now that I've thought about it a bit, I guess I can stop asking "How Did I Get Here" and start asking "What am I going to do now that I'm here." What about you? Now that you're here, what are your blessings, and what are you going to do?