On the Brink of - Doubt?

Ever deal with doubt? Inadequacy? Just don't feel "good enough?" This is an area I struggle with more often than I would care to admit.  For quite some time I have been waiting for someone else to do what God placed on my heart.  I have been denying God because I felt unworthy, unskilled, and honestly fearful.

God's desire for me is to lead women into their significance in Christ.  He gave me this vision several years ago, but "life" (and my doubt) kept getting in the way. The more life happened, the more inadequate and unprepared I felt. As I would read blogs, books and devotions from powerful women in ministry, it just reinforced my self-talk that I'm simply not good enough. My words are too simple, my life and style are not "holy" enough, added to these is that I do not know the steps to take to begin this mission.

God waited for me to drop my excuses.  He even removed a few obstacles. And when I was seemingly done whining, He reminded me that I am fearfully and wonderfully made.

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. (Psalm 139:14 NIV)

He would not give me a vision and a mission without giving me the skills necessary to complete the task.  He will provide me the details when necessary. My job is simply to carry out His request.  He reminded me of this through the story of King David and his son Solomon.

David wanted to build a place of "...great magnificence and fame and splendor in the sight of all the nations." 1 Chron 22:5NIV. This place was to be the temple for the Ark of the Covenant - the temple of God. David had a vision, but God placed the mission on Solomon to carry out.

Solomon was not skilled in construction.  I'm sure in today's world you would not find him on Angie's List of recommended builders.  Because of this, He was likely filled with fear and doubt.  After all, this was the temple of The Lord! But through King David, God provided Solomon with all of the tools and supplies necessary, even complete blueprints down to the last nail.  Solomon had simply to do two things:  seek completion with his full heart; and, "read the manual."

Do we seek after anything with our full heart? Do we even read the manual when it is provided to us?

God provides the blueprints for success; when we set them aside and try things in our own strength, we are destined for failure. Once we return to God's instructions, we will complete the mission and fulfill His desire to build a place of great magnificence. Whether it is changing one heart, dozens, hundreds, or thousands, if it is His will, it will be magnificent in His eyes.

Now devote your heart and soul to seeking the Lord your God. Begin to build the sanctuary of the Lord God, so that you may bring the ark of the covenant of the Lord and the sacred articles belonging to God into the temple that will be built for the Name of the Lord.” (1 Chronicles 22:19 NIV)

You ARE good enough.  You are fearfully and wonderfully made, and you are Significant to God. Are you afraid? Do you feel insignificant? Do you have doubt? Seek God and He will provide you all you need to fulfill His divine purpose.